this is it. this is a forgiving letter.

KACHOWWW!!

Last week of lectures people! Actually, I'm already on my long weekend now. Hehe.. Today's Thursday and I'll be having it til Sunday. Then guess what's coming next ... *drumrolls and Beethoven's Symphony* ... ALS REFLECTION on MONDAY!!! Seriously, I have no idea why they make us do reflections. It's like...as if there's right or wrong in our opinions! No right? =(

Anyway.. I've forgiven the witch and let her live for good. I'm a very compassionate person, okay! That's why Tenku Bernard made an alliance with my country. He even asked for merger, but I told him that it can't be done due to a logical reason -- geographical location! Unless, Singapore, PM Terence, donate us some $ to build an underground city connecting Malaysia and Indonesia. Oh well, PM is probably busy building his casino. Haiz..

Anyway.. Back to my point. The witch. Mr.Faaez informed me that the witch mentioned something about me. Whoaaaa!!! Vain Vain Vain!!! No laa! Listen first! ... So in Faeez's class, which was on Friday (btw, mine's on Mondays) ...

Witch: bla bla bla bla bla bla [some text missing] bla bla bla bla bla bla [more text missing]. There's someone in the other class who's doing on foreign students. It was quite a surprise for all of us on how the foreign students viewed plagiarism.

Okay.. and so forth! For once, she mentioned something pleasant about a freshie. Okay, then I'm quite happy. And Faeez was like, you're like one happy person! Of course! Everyone loves to be complimented. So actually, that's the aftermath of the presentation. Wanna hear the presentation day? It was actually on Monday, March 25, 2007, which was a week ago. Here goes...

Back to the past

Monday, March 25, 2007

I dreaded ALS class that Monday. I came early to school because I had an 8.30 AM class. After that class, I don't know why but I felt butterflies in my stomach. It just won't stop. Today was the 8-minute-presentation in ALS class. 8 minutes was like hell in that class, especially when you had firey glares from that creature. We were supposed to present our findings. Other classes had to submit their first draft, I heard.

The moment I stepped into the classroom, she was not there yet. I unpacked my belongings and took out my thumbdrive, a precious asset for that day. Five minutes later she came in with her backpack (I have no idea where in the world do witches use backpacks to carry their sorcery). My heart beat really fast. "This is it. This is the final one." I thought. Without haste, she called on us one by one to present. I was supposed to come second, however, it was GREAT that I wasn't because she changed her mind. She said, "Let's do it topic by topic." To my great relief, my topic was on international students. Therefore, I got to see my fellow classmates, who were doing plagiarism, to present first. After the third person presented, it was MY turn. She called my name: Ehn-jhe-lin. I was sweating menacely, ironically, it was a transparent one, so nobody actually saw it. HA!

When I was in front of the class, opening the file, something struck me: "BE A CLOWN!". Okay, imagine yourself being in front of auspicious looking creatures and this brilliant revelation just came and commanded you to be what it wants. What would you feel? Ah yes! I was saying, "Walaauw" to myself. But I obeyed it anyway. So there I was, presenting, clicking, pointing, and clowning. There was laughter in the jungle. And it lasted for about 10 minutes. "It was good." I said to myself.

Let's get serious...

Before this class, I was talking to my mother the other night. I told her how much I hated my tutor. She told me that there is no use in keeping hatred. She doesn't know and why are you making such a big fuss out of it. There's nothing else you can do except to pray and believe that you'll obtain favor from her. My mom's right. She's always right, I must say. Sometimes, we people see things so closely til it blocks our eyesight, and everything seems so blur. Drag the hand abit further, you can focus and see it clearly. You don't know how much I've prayed the other night and during the class (while the 3 others were presenting). I really confessed that I can make a good impression on her despite my complaints. And like what Faeez said, she actually mentioned my findings in the other class, in which you can conclude that I've actually had scarred her from my presentation. The best thing was this ... I took a step of faith after that class. I actually said Thank you to her. She did replied, "Oh! No problem!". But imagine me being a Dr.Tan-hater the other night and the next day became what I'm supposed to become ... an angel. Seriously, it's not my might. It's so not me. I must say it's by the grace of God. And it's really up to me to forgive or not to forgive. But I'm glad that I chose to obey Him. I feel happy and I know I'll be an impact to her somehow. =D