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destressing period?

"Life's good! I'm feeling You!" (Branch, 2005)


Yep. One paper down and one more to go. And I have to wait 10 days before my next paper. Haiz.. But nvm! I have time to slack and enjoy my aftermath of Singapore history. HAHA!

After the paper, 3.30pm, Tera, Kain, Jeanette, and I went back together. In Boon Lay station, I met up with Wulan. We already planned that day that we're going to watch a movie after my paper. We went to Orchard. Lido, specifically. We bought the tickets for The Last Mimzy. It's her birthday treat from me! (=

Our movie was supposedly at 7.20PM, but we came very early. So after we bought the tickets we went to eat in Sakae Sushi, Wheelock Place. First time I ordered ramen. Ahem. Yes, usually I ordered Udon. Difference? Of course! One's smaller, one's bigger. I think the ramen tasted like yu mian. Err.. yes. Obviously, I ate too many yu mian, especially in Amara Hotel. My all-time favorite: Sliced Fish Yu Mian, Aunty! d;

After dinner, we walked back to Lido and we were the first people to enter the studio. It's Studio 5. It's really really ugly! And very very old! The ceilings were peeling. And there were water-marks. Eeeew! Anyway, the fun part was we got the chance to take pictures first. SO we did. Not only on our seats, but we also went infront, under the screen. There were 2 "No Smoking" signs on both wings. We went to the right sign and we took pictures there. It's really funny coz we didn't realize that there was actually someone up at the projector room. I don't think he bother anyway.

A few minutes after that, people started to come in. Which was quite GOOD! Coz you don't wanna watch it alone in a big spacy, old, rectanglish room. Eeek! Freaky!
The movie itself was not as "good" as what I've expected. Although it has a bit of thriller, and quite freaky coz it's like Mimzy, the rabbit, can communicate with Emma, the lil girl. It's just ALRIGHT.

That's how I spent my de-stressing period yesterday. I'm still not in the mood to study. I guess I'd better start tomorrow. Or else... [choke]

life and love and why?

"Appreciate what you have now. You'll never know what happen tomorrow."


That was the line that my friend told me a few days ago. I was feeling really down these past few days. I missed home, I was stressed out because of exams, I was lonely, I was broken until I lost my self-image. The depressing thoughts always attacked me until I cannot take it anymore that I even thought of ending my life. Stupid isn't it?

Just yesterday I talked to my friend online and he knew I wasn't okay. But he just said, "Appreciate now!" At first, I told him I can't! How am I suppose to appreciate life when it's all depressing?! He then told me what happened to him. I was shocked. I thought he was okay. But upon hearing the news that he was diagnosed with some type of disorder made me think deeply. He encouraged me in someway. When I asked him if he's alright, he told me that he's fine. I told him to get a treatment or just do a check-up or something. He said he will but he exclaimed that he will be enjoying every single day without thinking there's something wrong with him. I was touched.

I reflected on his words. He has faith. He was struck by a disease and yet he rejoiced; but I, on the other hand, only encountered stress and I thought that's the end of the world already. Depressed people didn't think ahead. They only think of themselves. They thought that problems only struck them and because it's painful for them, they thought that it's better to end it. But what about others? They didn't think that it'll affect people around them, such as family members, loved ones, and friends. They didn't believe that God created them to bless others. Here I am, talking like a "holy" person, and yet I can't believe that I had thoughts of ending my life. But hey..don't worry..I realized that I still have a purposeful life to live. God reminded me of so many things before I make that "foolish" decision.


He said:

1. Remember you wanna spoil your kids?

2. Remember you're going to write books?

3. Remember you're going to speak to millionares and billionares?

4. Remember you're going to be a model?

5. Remember you're going to be a motivator?

6. Remember you're going to take over the school and make legacies?

etc etc etc..

I was dumbfounded. I nodded and told God, "Hey, God! You're right. It's not the time yet to die." I had so many things that I haven't accomplished yet and the prophecies have not been fulfilled yet. The thought of it strengthened me. It actually cleared my mind of dying early.
Sometimes, I would also think that I'll die early, like in a car-crash, or plane-crash, or something. But, with this as a "pegangan hidup", I am so sure that God still wants me to live. He has a great destiny for me, and I don't have to worry a single thing.

Wow. It actually applies to my second exam paper. Why do people have religions? That question kept on bothering me for the whole month. I don't have a perfect answer and I really want to hear your answer. And what is religion to you? If you say that it's a belief, then what's it meant by free-thinker? Don't you know that free-thinkers also have a belief?

Hope this post blesses ya'll and motivate ya'll to live a purposeful life. We're not called to just populate the Earth. We have a purpose.
Be blessed.
______and happy studying! d;

He knows my name.

I'm a proud daughter of my Creator. I inherit a big bigg bigggg kingdom.

discussions.

Sunday afternoon. Suppose to be studying but you know me ... after ALS...WHOOOOSH!!! no more man! ='D siannnnn....

Oh well, I promise to study tomorrow. Actually, I've been studying since 3 days ago. My studying would mean, talking to people and asking them about Singapore history (haha! cheating right? =P)

I got a question for you all who read this post. If you guys can provide me a good answer for my argument (this is also helping me in my exam), it'll be SOOOOOO great! And I must say I can't thank you enough for helping me out. Coz you see, I never took Singapore history before. So believe it or not, I had a Singapore history module this semester. Better yet, it's a tertiary level module! Aaaaaaaaaaa..... I'm bombarded by this Raffles and Goh Keng Swee. Wooooooo!!
But it's quite an experience to learn other people's culture. And hey! Singapore history did not go as far as Indonesian history, so it's not as difficult as other country's history. =)

So here are my questions:

1. What is a global-city?
2. Can Singapore become a global-city before the 1980s?
3. How do you separate facts from myth for Singapore's pre-1819 history?
4. What is the role of Goh Keng Swee? What is so important about him? Does he play a major role in the making of a global-city?

Do post your answers on the tagboard. If it's not enough ... chat with me or post it on friendster. Cheers and muchos gracias! =D

saturday night.

Haiz...





This is like quite sucky. I had to study on weekends. I've been chionging my AAH 104 essay about Indian cultural influence in South-East Asia. Seriously, it's not much to talk about. I thought we're supposed to argue on essays (like what our ALS module taught us) but it doesn't apply in my history course! Especially with Dr.Fernando! He wants archaeological evidences. AAaaaaaarghh!! And you know what ... okay! He's an Indian. He expects all of us to pronounce his Indian words correctly with the exact pronunciation as he does it. EH! Helloo!! I'm very oriental and most of us are! Only Kahbini is the only Indian in our history class. Chih! I hope I don't get deducted on those minor things. ... ... ...





But interesting facts are:


1. Garuda is a mythical bird! -- Phoaaa! When I first read this in one of D.G.E Hall's chapter, I was quite shocked. Indonesian national icon was based on a mythical bird. It was influenced by Hinduism coz that bird was supposedly a warrior bird, ridden by a Hindu god called Vishnu.





2. Sanskrit language was originated from India. -- This, I think most of us know that. But must take note that in Indonesia, Sanskrit wasn't really adopted fully. They did mixed some Sanskrit into Javanese. Examples: "Mandala", "Chandi", "Dharma".





3. Srivijaya kingdom existed in Sumatra. -- The major city that played a major role in commerce was what we call now, Palembang.








So many things to talk about, yet so lazy...coz I've been doing this since last week. Chionging and chionging... ><" ...Haha! Anyway! That's all for today. It's already 11.26 PM. *waiting*. IC if you're reading this, you know what I'll say right? Hehe.. Yep! Tqm. Nite people! =) p.s. This was what I did during lunchtime...Got nothing better to do...

thought, organized, and decorated by angelene tjoandi.

item used: raw beehoon that angel took from the plastic bag beside her that was supposedly to be cooked for lunch. [itchy hands]

this is it. this is a forgiving letter.

KACHOWWW!!

Last week of lectures people! Actually, I'm already on my long weekend now. Hehe.. Today's Thursday and I'll be having it til Sunday. Then guess what's coming next ... *drumrolls and Beethoven's Symphony* ... ALS REFLECTION on MONDAY!!! Seriously, I have no idea why they make us do reflections. It's like...as if there's right or wrong in our opinions! No right? =(

Anyway.. I've forgiven the witch and let her live for good. I'm a very compassionate person, okay! That's why Tenku Bernard made an alliance with my country. He even asked for merger, but I told him that it can't be done due to a logical reason -- geographical location! Unless, Singapore, PM Terence, donate us some $ to build an underground city connecting Malaysia and Indonesia. Oh well, PM is probably busy building his casino. Haiz..

Anyway.. Back to my point. The witch. Mr.Faaez informed me that the witch mentioned something about me. Whoaaaa!!! Vain Vain Vain!!! No laa! Listen first! ... So in Faeez's class, which was on Friday (btw, mine's on Mondays) ...

Witch: bla bla bla bla bla bla [some text missing] bla bla bla bla bla bla [more text missing]. There's someone in the other class who's doing on foreign students. It was quite a surprise for all of us on how the foreign students viewed plagiarism.

Okay.. and so forth! For once, she mentioned something pleasant about a freshie. Okay, then I'm quite happy. And Faeez was like, you're like one happy person! Of course! Everyone loves to be complimented. So actually, that's the aftermath of the presentation. Wanna hear the presentation day? It was actually on Monday, March 25, 2007, which was a week ago. Here goes...

Back to the past

Monday, March 25, 2007

I dreaded ALS class that Monday. I came early to school because I had an 8.30 AM class. After that class, I don't know why but I felt butterflies in my stomach. It just won't stop. Today was the 8-minute-presentation in ALS class. 8 minutes was like hell in that class, especially when you had firey glares from that creature. We were supposed to present our findings. Other classes had to submit their first draft, I heard.

The moment I stepped into the classroom, she was not there yet. I unpacked my belongings and took out my thumbdrive, a precious asset for that day. Five minutes later she came in with her backpack (I have no idea where in the world do witches use backpacks to carry their sorcery). My heart beat really fast. "This is it. This is the final one." I thought. Without haste, she called on us one by one to present. I was supposed to come second, however, it was GREAT that I wasn't because she changed her mind. She said, "Let's do it topic by topic." To my great relief, my topic was on international students. Therefore, I got to see my fellow classmates, who were doing plagiarism, to present first. After the third person presented, it was MY turn. She called my name: Ehn-jhe-lin. I was sweating menacely, ironically, it was a transparent one, so nobody actually saw it. HA!

When I was in front of the class, opening the file, something struck me: "BE A CLOWN!". Okay, imagine yourself being in front of auspicious looking creatures and this brilliant revelation just came and commanded you to be what it wants. What would you feel? Ah yes! I was saying, "Walaauw" to myself. But I obeyed it anyway. So there I was, presenting, clicking, pointing, and clowning. There was laughter in the jungle. And it lasted for about 10 minutes. "It was good." I said to myself.

Let's get serious...

Before this class, I was talking to my mother the other night. I told her how much I hated my tutor. She told me that there is no use in keeping hatred. She doesn't know and why are you making such a big fuss out of it. There's nothing else you can do except to pray and believe that you'll obtain favor from her. My mom's right. She's always right, I must say. Sometimes, we people see things so closely til it blocks our eyesight, and everything seems so blur. Drag the hand abit further, you can focus and see it clearly. You don't know how much I've prayed the other night and during the class (while the 3 others were presenting). I really confessed that I can make a good impression on her despite my complaints. And like what Faeez said, she actually mentioned my findings in the other class, in which you can conclude that I've actually had scarred her from my presentation. The best thing was this ... I took a step of faith after that class. I actually said Thank you to her. She did replied, "Oh! No problem!". But imagine me being a Dr.Tan-hater the other night and the next day became what I'm supposed to become ... an angel. Seriously, it's not my might. It's so not me. I must say it's by the grace of God. And it's really up to me to forgive or not to forgive. But I'm glad that I chose to obey Him. I feel happy and I know I'll be an impact to her somehow. =D