Life's Good

When you think that all is good, all is fine, I'm living in reality ...
But honestly, did you ever think that your life is ALL good?

Some things are not meant to be owned. Some are not suppose to be yours. Some are to be waited. Some are prohibited. And most things are to remind you that life is good.

Though it may not seemed like it. Life is still good. Despite all that has been done, the best is yet to come.

Depression.
Huh? Who? Me? What? Angel? How? Nooo! Can't be. Oh yess.. who said I can't? I'm still a human being. I have senses and emotions too, ya know.
Over what?

...and God reminded me to be patient. "But seek the Kingdom of God and ALL these things shall be added to you."
Prioritizing God as number one is important. Not your studies, although exam's in two days time; not your hangouts; not your boyfriend, though you feel that he loves you very much ... But is your life all about that? These things shall perish one day. But what will survive?

Legacies and the promises of God.
I want my generation to be God-fearing people. Reverent and righteous. But it all starts from me. The decisions I make now will determine whether it's blessings or consequences.

Depression?
Not anymore. I have overcame by the power of His name. I always believe ... that the best is yet to come. AND ... it ain't over. it AIN'T over..
Breakthrough is on its way. Knocked twice and nothing happened? Keep on doing it. Who knows that it'll crack open on the third knock.

Be blessed. Go. And conquer!


*sorry that this is such a vague post*

defending joel osteen.

I received an email update from Joel Osteen Ministry and they've informed me that both husband and wife will be interviewed live by Larry King on Oct. 16, 2007! An hour full!
I'm excited for them. =D.
I also received an email that says Osteen was interviewed by CBS News about criticisms. How he handled criticisms. So, out of curiosity, I googled his name to find what criticisms did he receive. Then I found this page: http://www.apprising.org/archives/2005/10/joel_osteen_smi.html

I really snorted! After reading excerpts of this article, I KNEW it must be from a religious preacher who ALWAYS think that those who did NOT quote or PREACH about the Bible is ... a FALSE PROPHET!
The man who wrote this is still in a boxed mindset, that's how I viewed it.
So, if his man ever gets to read my blog, here's what I have defend on Joel Osteen's messages and ministry:

Firstly, we're living in the 21st century. If you keep on preaching about the Scripture in some traditional methods, do you think people of this era will accept it so easily? Think! This era is really different. As compared to five-ten years ago, today is the time when ALL of us are taught to think and reason. Ever wondered why people become free-thinkers? Because they think that religion is NOT for them. Too many rules. Too many things to commit. Eeeew, hello .... life now is about how you present yourself -- study, get an A+ and your honors, get a good job, get married, and voila ... retire before you die. I trust in myself. I know that I can do it. I don't need anyone else. <<< THAT! is the mindset of most people who's living in this century.
So, if the Gospel's carried out in traditional methods with traditional terms, who the heck would listen??? Even old people won't bother, at least that's what I know, coming from experience (ahem! my grandpa)

Joel Osteen's approach is very practical, I must say. I heard so many testimonies about how his sermons touched even the non-believers. One of my Mom's friends, who's a non-B, told my mom that he knew Joel Osteen. He listened to his sermons before he flew off the plane (he's an SIA pilot! ;p). He liked it very much and he can relate to it better. I mean, with testimonies like this, Joel Osteen is doing a very good job in transforming people's mindset in their views of God.

Christianity is NOT a religion. It's a relationship with our God. Take Jesus' life for example. Has He ever indoctrinate the people SO MUCH like the Pharisees? Has He ever say, "PEOPLE! I FREAKIN' FORCE YOU TO BELIEVE IN GOD!"? Don't you think if He says that, people will get turn off because people don't even know if He's the real Messiah or not UNTIL He acts like one! Yes or no? He showed people that He is the ONE because of His life! The way He lives really showed that He is in Earth not to have fun and because His Father commanded Him so...He offered Himself to save ya'll and me. He came as a human being just like you and me. He knew the Word and that's why He chose to share the Truth with the world, IN PRACTICAL MANNER!

Imagine if Jesus has no relationship with His Father God in Heaven, do you think that He can bear the cross? He's doing it because He knows that this'll help EVERYONE in the earth, who has sin against God receives freedom and access to eternal life. He knows who He is in God's eyes. He knows that in the end, it's not only Him who gets the reward, but everyone who believes in Christ Jesus.

Basically, my main point is ... live righteously! Take the Word, apply it in your life, and voila ... you're all set for the day! =)
Don't be SO OOOOOOO religious and spiritual, like every sentences has "Hallelujah" at its tail ... OMG. Even I ... will be so turned off by that.

Anyway! Joel Osteen! He's da bomb! ;)

Visit his site and try hearing his sermons:
http://joelosteen.lakewood.cc/site/PageServer?pagename=JOM_homepage

are you happy now?

"Life's unfair."

Many times we hear this quote. How true is it in our lives? I'm sure we've all been through ups and downs. But when your downs have stronger gravitational force on you, you'll cry out, "LIFE'S UNFAIR!" It will always be. No matter how old or young you are, life is sometimes unfair.

I just read an email from my Mom. She replied me late because she told me that she's been very busy lately. And today, she said she went to one of the MSA students' funeral. A 3rd grader just passed away 2 days ago. She had only came to school for 2 days last week, and on the weekend, she was operated for a brain tumor. However, it did not turn up well. How is life fair?

I didn't even know the girl but when I read that email, I was silent. I was devastated. And I broke down. It's probably because as an individual, I am very sensitive. But this ...

God! This is a 3rd grader! It's a baby girl who has not even turned a decade! If I were her mother, I'll also be devastated. Here you are, telling your child that she's going to be a great woman, making lots of money, marrying a wise husband in the future. But seconds later, coz time flies very fast, she's gone sooner than you think. I simply couldn't understand. Chih. No wonder I'm not God.

Losing someone is horrible. I think it's so much better to breakup with a bf/gf rather than having someone died. Well at least after the breakup you still can have a life! Although it's up to you whether you want to HAVE it or drown yourself in misery and pity-party. Chih. And then you tell yourself that you wanna DIE because he/she broke you up. Then go and DIE la! People want to live and avoid dying but you're so "desperate" to go to the other side. Stupidity.

... I'm sorry. I'm being so emo today, although I've told myself that today is a wonderful day. I've tried... it just seems contradictory. I've been angry with people. And now I've learnt a lesson...be with them, spend time with them, just be thankful that they're still present ... God's time for them hasn't come yet, so make the best out of it. Appreciate them like never before. They're your loved ones. They are unique people that you'll spend the rest of your life with. There's not gonna be another them in the future nor in the past. They're them. Your loves. My loved ones.

To all my friends and family who's reading this. I thank you so much that I have you in my life. You may not be perfect to be my friend, coz I am not too. But I'm glad that the times we've shared are all quality time! You've marked your name in my heart, my soul, and my mind. No matter what, I will never forget you! I may not remember your name in the future but ... I know, the angels will whisper me your name so the memories we've had will be revived.
Love ya'll! =)

the tagline.

"If you're brave enough to kill, why aren't you brave enough to change?"

It's one of those powerful lines taken from a Hong Kong movie Invisible Target.
Although at first I did not plan to watch it but since my sister, my brother, my uncle, and I had nothing to do in Vivocity, we decided to kill time by watching this Chinese movie. It turns out to be an amazing masterpiece! Not only was the storyline catchy, the effects and stunts were also incredible. The actors include Shawn Yue and Nicholas Tse -- oh yeah, they're sizzlin' HOT -- and one more guy (whom I shall call Mr.X, for now, coz I don't know the name!) who looked like Jacie Chan (Jackie Chan's son) ... except that this guy has a better nose than Mr.Chan. Ahem..

That tagline was actually addressed to one of the gangsters that these policemen tried to arrest. (Take note that the actors that I've mentioned were the "good guys"). It was Mr.X's line when he questioned the villain (I shall call him Mr.O, for blogging purpose). Mr.X asked that question because he knew that there was still some good and working conscience in Mr.O.
On the other hand, Mr.O replied him coldly, "I was born to be bad." and so on and so forth ... and in the end, Mr.O died. How? WATCH IT YOURSELF, you spoiler-reader! I spend SEVEN bucks just to watch the movie and you wanna know the whole story for free? ISH! So inhumane ar!


The powerful message about the tagline is this ...
Change that "kill" into something we are sinful most. It may be watching TV, or smoking, or indulging massive chocolates. If we can do that, why can't we change? And of course, this "change" is to a better cause.
As I ponder on this question, I came into a conclusion, which may not be applicable to ALL, but it is universal (especially to me).

"Phenomenal miracles happen because of desperate people asking for it."

I derived this quote from a sermon by Ps.Franco G. when he came to ENCS on July 15, 2007.

In other words, things do happen according to what we are desperate for. If I take a look at my life, for instance, I would see that 95% of my desperateness leads to success. But of course, the 5% is either I wasn't allowed or not yet. An example would be my wanting to get the glasses that I wanted. If you all know the blue specs that I wore for the last two years, that's the product of Angelene being desperate! My grandma told me that it wasn't suitable for me. My mom told me that it looked horendous. Nevertheless, I kept on persisting. I ensure them that it's something out of the ordinary and it'll survive with me for a couple of years (uhm..it's coz I always change specs when I'm given the chance to shop for one =P). And true enough, they're probably "annoyed" by my determination to own the blue plastic spectacles. The end of the story ... they bought my desperateness.

See what I mean?

Hope ya'll catch the movie as soon as possible. And do LEARN from media. It sure feeds you with lotsa moral principles and values.

A-60 Thank Yous

If you want to feel good, thank your Creator for such wonderful things He had and even has not done to you. There are many things that you always complain about in life. It's true. Life is unfair. But ... maybe it's time for you to reverse your "problems" into blessings. Being grateful is one of the steps to see breakthroughs and miracles in life... which is why, I propose this "60 thank-yous". Let this be your prayer too ... to your Heavenly Father.



1. I thank You for life

2. I thank You for love

3. I thank You for joy that helps me go through my days enthusiastically

4. I thank You for the air that I breathe in

5. I thank You for my dad -- my hero, my provider, my greatest

6. I thank You for my mom who has always been a loving parent, a teacher, and a counsellor

7. I thank You for my sister whom I always share my pain and joy with

8. I thank You for my two brothers for always imparting and influencing me in all sorts of manner

9. I thank You for my 6 maids (3 in SG and 3 in Indo)

10. I thank You for my driver

11. I thank You for my houses

12. I thank You for electricity

13. I thank You for water

14. I thank You for internet

15. I thank You for cables

16. I thank You for wires

17. I thank You for satellites

18. I thank You for mobile phones

19. I thank You for my grandparents -- I love them so!

20. I thank You for my aunts

21. I thank You for my uncles

22. I thank You for Stesha -- she has been my joy as a cousin.

23. I thank You for my friends

24. I thank You for my love

25. I thank You for my future

26. I thank You for the great destiny You have in store for me

27. I thank You for perfect health now and my years ahead

28. I thank You for your everlasting protection, both physically and spiritually

29. I thank You for angels

30. I thank You for washing away all my sins and shame

31. I thank You for Jesus

32. I thank You for my identity in Christ

33. I thank You for breakthroughs

34. I thank You for miracles

35. I thank You for entrusting me with abundant skills and talents

36. I thank You for blessed days

37. I thank You for keeping me beautiful, inside and outside

38. I thank You for internal working normal organs

39. I thank You for my nose

40. I thank You for my eyes, that I still can see clearly, that I'm not blind

41. I thank You for my mouth, that I still can utter words

42. I thank You for my tongue

43. I thank You for my eyebrows

44. I thank You for my hair

45. I thank You for my cheeks

46. I thank You for my ears -- I am not deaf

47. I thank You for my vocal chords

48. I thank You for my pretty voice

49. I thank You for my good-lookin' shape body

50. I thank You for money

51. I thank You for my riches

52. I thank You for my studies

53. I thank You for my lecturers

54. I thank You for my school

55. I thank You for my principals

56. I thank You for my Fujitsu laptop

57. I thank You for my Logitech webcam

58. I thank You for Abang Sher who gave that webcam to me for my 20th birthday

59. I thank You for sk8erboi

60. I thank You for everything that I can't mention one by one!

OH!
You know what! I actually typed 100 of them before this...and I accidentally did something that undo-ne it. URGH!
ANYWAY! I hope 60 is alright.. .. you get what I mean eh! AAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

settling for less?

I went thru deep thoughts these days.

People here in Indo really got me into thinking about my future. It's not just one time, but it hit me several times. It's more than just my dreams for the future. It's more about the "now". It's like whispers that tell me that my future is in my hands now. I can change it. I'm the one directing it. That's why I should live my life according to how I want my future to be like.

It's a really risky journey. But I know that there's always a price to pay to receive the best.

This is actually the main principle of what I've thought over about love.



When I saw celebrities in that E!Channel, (hehe! yes! i watch that!) it motivates me to think that most of their "partners" were all famous and rich too. Like Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie, Madonna and Guy Ritchie, etc. etc. etc. The question now is... Celebrities knew that they don't want to settle for less, what about us?

How do we know whether or not we are settling for less or not?



1. Check your values and dream-girl/guy characteristic list. -- If what you got is not in your list, don't blame situation. Don't even blame FATE! Remember! We're all human beings! We get to choose what we want. Distractions may appear but it's the way you handle it, that's when you achieve success in life. Here's an easy example. Everyone wants to have a partner that they could be proud of. Yes? Although some may not admit it, but deep down, they feel proud (if not, how can you go about "liking" someone if it doesn't start with "admiration". hur hur hur?!) This pride that u have is actually your "standard" of your crush. People might say it's chemistry, but it's more than that. See it in other people's perspective, especially your family's. Use the values that your family has implanted in you and use it to find the "right" one for you. We want our darlings to be welcomed by our family and friends, don't we? We don't want them to talk behind our backs about how "ugly" your partner looks like. I mean, if they're UGLY, you can't prevent people from commenting on how ugly your partner looks like, yes? <<>



2. Check where your partner usually hang out and the people he hangs out with! -- it's very crucial for us people who are good girls and good boys. HAHA! Anyway, I'm saying that all of us are good! Just that, how do you define "good"? (= Well, in the end, we all will become parents. So if you got a girlfriend/boyfriend that loves to smoke and get drunk and flirtatious (again..example), that's the kind of past that you'll drag along to your future. Then what are you gonna tell your kids? Lie to them about your past? What are you gonna teach them? Good values? Or just don't know, don't care?



The point is.. you're living for your future. Just like how we earn money. We work, we get money, we SPEND! And how does that spending feel if it's for shopping and luxurious treats? Definitely AWESOME! That's life, people. Live it the way you want your end to be. Die with legacies. And become a history-maker. You're an ordinary person bound to do extraordinary things. Who says Wentworth Miller (Prison Break) was a handsome young lad? Or was he a quarterback whom the babes lined up for? Guess again, querida. He's one heck of a nerd with thick-framed glasses. Ordinary? Of course. Even worse. But look at him now. He worked his way up. He's a star. (ooo..how I pray to the Almighty God in Heaven that I will get that kind of hot ang-moh-ish husband) =DD~ Okay! I'm done! And my wish shall come true! Hehe.

ANYWAY. I hope my insights help you all to consider whatever hell you're going through right now. There's always HOPE. I do not condemn anyone. But if it convicted you, hey .. maybe it's time to listen to your conscience and start living a life full of purpose. It's great. And welcome aboard!

life and love and why?

"Appreciate what you have now. You'll never know what happen tomorrow."


That was the line that my friend told me a few days ago. I was feeling really down these past few days. I missed home, I was stressed out because of exams, I was lonely, I was broken until I lost my self-image. The depressing thoughts always attacked me until I cannot take it anymore that I even thought of ending my life. Stupid isn't it?

Just yesterday I talked to my friend online and he knew I wasn't okay. But he just said, "Appreciate now!" At first, I told him I can't! How am I suppose to appreciate life when it's all depressing?! He then told me what happened to him. I was shocked. I thought he was okay. But upon hearing the news that he was diagnosed with some type of disorder made me think deeply. He encouraged me in someway. When I asked him if he's alright, he told me that he's fine. I told him to get a treatment or just do a check-up or something. He said he will but he exclaimed that he will be enjoying every single day without thinking there's something wrong with him. I was touched.

I reflected on his words. He has faith. He was struck by a disease and yet he rejoiced; but I, on the other hand, only encountered stress and I thought that's the end of the world already. Depressed people didn't think ahead. They only think of themselves. They thought that problems only struck them and because it's painful for them, they thought that it's better to end it. But what about others? They didn't think that it'll affect people around them, such as family members, loved ones, and friends. They didn't believe that God created them to bless others. Here I am, talking like a "holy" person, and yet I can't believe that I had thoughts of ending my life. But hey..don't worry..I realized that I still have a purposeful life to live. God reminded me of so many things before I make that "foolish" decision.


He said:

1. Remember you wanna spoil your kids?

2. Remember you're going to write books?

3. Remember you're going to speak to millionares and billionares?

4. Remember you're going to be a model?

5. Remember you're going to be a motivator?

6. Remember you're going to take over the school and make legacies?

etc etc etc..

I was dumbfounded. I nodded and told God, "Hey, God! You're right. It's not the time yet to die." I had so many things that I haven't accomplished yet and the prophecies have not been fulfilled yet. The thought of it strengthened me. It actually cleared my mind of dying early.
Sometimes, I would also think that I'll die early, like in a car-crash, or plane-crash, or something. But, with this as a "pegangan hidup", I am so sure that God still wants me to live. He has a great destiny for me, and I don't have to worry a single thing.

Wow. It actually applies to my second exam paper. Why do people have religions? That question kept on bothering me for the whole month. I don't have a perfect answer and I really want to hear your answer. And what is religion to you? If you say that it's a belief, then what's it meant by free-thinker? Don't you know that free-thinkers also have a belief?

Hope this post blesses ya'll and motivate ya'll to live a purposeful life. We're not called to just populate the Earth. We have a purpose.
Be blessed.
______and happy studying! d;